huk.

we have been friends for awhile now, we use to be close to bestfriends, somewhere we had a down fall and didn't hang, talk, take any notice of each other. but somewhere along the way we found each other for the second time round. i've missed you a bunch loads, but know that you are back theres no need to miss you. you make me smile endlessly reminding me of our crazy moments and memories. your a trust worthy person, caring and helpful. you carry good advice in your pocket ready to hand out. if anyone for one second tells you your a bad person a bad friend, untrustworthy, useless they have to be seriously fucked up in the brain because you are amazing. don't ever let people under mind you, manipulate you, put you down because you don't deserve it and they don't deserve you. thank you for always being here for me.

allan frank.

i am satan.

i know what i did, i know how its effected/ing people. two certain people. two certain people i was closer to then any random stranger. i wake up every morning feeling this guilt following my shadow around and around all day long. i beg for it to go away but as i beg i let it stay because i deserve this guilt to gobble me up whole, eat me alive, chew me to pieces until i can't walk anymore. i've hurt people before. but what i've done is indescribable, its unacceptable and wrong on to many levels to count. and while you sit there thinking that the only reason i'm hurting is because he fucked me over big time, its not. i know the things you go through and i know the people you hate and the people that hurt you and i hated them, i hated their fucking guts for putting all that hurt into your body forcing yourself to hurt yourself, it made me so mad that i wanted them to feel your pain. and now i've become one of them, one of those people that add onto a little piece of your depression. it sickens me. it hurts me. i want to take back time and undo everything. but thats impossible. i can't say sorry, because a simple word with a simple meaning doesn't make up for the pain i've given you. but i can show you that i do not think that it was right and i can show you that it is eating away at me. and you, you loved me more then anyone ever could, you truly, honestly loved me with all your heart. and i tore it from your chest. i ripped it out, chewed on it and threw it away and realizing it now, thinking about it, looking at myself in the mirror reminding me what i have done to you every single fucking day, is unexplainable. you didn't deserve it. damn it both of you didn't deserve it. and i can't even say sorry to you in any form of way except write this fucking blog. i am not happy about what i've done. i am not fulfilled. complete. anything. i lost two people and gained none. and realizing that now. it sucks. and i deserve every piece of pain i get.

gdndngdndhnfg

please. understand.

unknown.

she was a girl that let happiness shine through every window of her house, she loved as many people as she could at once to let them know their not on their own. she was beautiful, and kind. she helped with everything. then one day, something pulled her away from all of this. something that made her different to the meaning of her name. she tried drugs and alcohol also cigarettes. she changed her hair style. she changed her look. she changed so much about her that she just wasnt herself anymore. she began to hurt people, herself. she began to break things and throw things. in the end, when she finally had enough and was on the ground in tears she realised what had happend to her. she found the thing that was killing her. so she took it by the arm and buried it. she got back on her feet and opened her curtains. she sat in the sun and let the rays heal her wounds. she was the girl that let something lead her into the darkness and survived coming back out.

where did this go?

we had so much fun. where did it all go?

Broken glass

Have you ever felt like you need to start over,

be a new person and be set free?

sometimes, do you ever feel

as if you're looking through broken glass

with broken future and shattered past?

Dont let the what-ifs or should've-beens

hold you back.

It's your time and your dreams.

Be a sun shining bright.

Not a cloud dull and dim.

You can change the world

And bring the light.